My first attempt at poetry ..

Hi all, here i am penning down my first ever creation ,my first poem ( which i wrote few months ago ).

what i have gotten into
I am in a whirlwind
whirlwind is in me or it is out?
I doubt.....

I am just thinking how i am here
did i fall by myself or one was there?
I see my beloved far from me
I see them but do they see me?

I am in parish, do anybody know?
if yes ,do they care, i hardly know
whole world is circling
I might fall and no one there to hold

I just want my beloved to know
how much i cared, loved each of them
May be not more than myself,but i tried.
I have no hopes left and i m in a whirlwind
rising higher ,higher and higher

It is just a simple creation of mine. When i heard  some deadly news about betrayal of someone back then, words just popped into my mind and i tried this...